Finding my way back

 VORSATZ

Auf dem Weg nach vorn 
mit der Flut der Wörter 
die ungenauer werden 
je häufiger man sie ausspricht  

gehen wir zurück
Wort für Wort
einzuholen
was uns vorschwebt  

Heinz Kattner

I'm running ahead with writing the book, chapter after chapter I kept a quick pace. Now, I have reached a point, the pinnacle of my journey and the words have run out. I can't seem to figure out how to climb this last incline. It's about what Dave taught me about sailing and life, but it is actually about dying and death.  

Each time I write the chapter, I take so many detours that the results are confusing and convoluted to the point there is nothing to do but start again. No morsel to clasp onto. No passage to save.  

I write and write, thinking this is going somewhere. Then I reread what I've written a few days later and discover what I've written is completely trash. Thus the need to start again. Or maybe I should go back before going forward. Find some way to use what I have written in the other chapters to prompt me into this chapter about Dave.