I cross over the boundaries of decades long gone and suddenly feel myself young. My body memory rewinds the clock of time and rediscovers those precious, impossible poses of an aspiring ballet dancer. Flexible. Free to twist my body into pretzels of silliness. And so, I finish my session by sitting on the ground and bringing my big toe up to my nose in an ‘aha you thought I couldn’t do it’ pose. Et voilà.
15 January, 2026
Morning yoga
I cross over the boundaries of decades long gone and suddenly feel myself young. My body memory rewinds the clock of time and rediscovers those precious, impossible poses of an aspiring ballet dancer. Flexible. Free to twist my body into pretzels of silliness. And so, I finish my session by sitting on the ground and bringing my big toe up to my nose in an ‘aha you thought I couldn’t do it’ pose. Et voilà.
11 January, 2026
08 January, 2026
Proud to be Grenadian
Listening to this speech by Jumaane Williams, who comes from the Williams family of St. Andrew, made me think of Pat and how proud she would have been to be Grenadian, listening to his moving words.
She only became Grenadian at the end of her nearly forty years there. She did so as a symbol of her gratitude for the country and the deep love she felt for the people who held her hands all those years.
06 January, 2026
Beautiful sounds: quiet resignation
The crunch-squish of my boots stomping through the slushy snow all over town.
04 January, 2026
02 January, 2026
A house, remembered
This piece is about the Buckley grandparents' home. It differs considerably from the piece I wrote about the Hadley grandparents' house. It is easy to see the difference in the home's atmosphere through the lens of my childhood memories.
It could be that the main difference is that Pat, John, and Peter were raised in this house, whereas the house where the Grandparents lived was bought after Dave, Barbara, and Gordon had already left home. The stories Pat and Peter told me about their childhood and the strictness or tyranny of their father have also seeped into my memories.
29 December, 2025
What remains
I’ve been revisiting a place that no longer exists in the way it once did: my grandparents’ house, set back from a quiet road in rural Ontario, with a river at the edge of the garden and a rhythm that belonged to another time. (Link to document.)
Writing these memories wasn’t about reconstructing the past accurately, or even chronologically. It was about noticing what has endured. Not the large events, but the smaller ones: how light moved through rooms, how time stretched in childhood, how care was expressed through routine rather than words.
I’ve come to believe that memory doesn’t preserve everything evenly. It keeps what mattered, often without explaining why. What remains are fragments: sounds, gestures, objects shaped by hand, and the feeling of being held within an ordered, attentive world.
This piece is a gathering of those fragments. It’s written for family, but also for anyone who carries a place within them that continues to inform how they see, move, and care.
Some houses disappear. Others remain, quietly, in the way we remember how to be.
24 December, 2025
Beautiful sounds: joyful anticipation
The flutter of butterflies in my stomach, knowing our children will soon be here for Christmas.
21 December, 2025
Waiting for Christmas to begin
Waking this morning
Wonderful smells of Christmas
Pine sap and coffee.
Pine sap and coffee.
Photo by Tony Litvyak on Unsplash
11 December, 2025
07 December, 2025
05 December, 2025
A season of stillness
She gazes out the window at the thick grey skies. These dark, short, cold days weigh upon her. She, who once danced through the summer nights with her dearest friends in mind and spirit. The DJ and bar owners had pushed them out the door with a wink and a nod. Sweating and breathless, they’d wandered the early morning streets before dawn, before lights went on in the bedrooms of the homes they passed. All the while, they hummed together the last song of the night.
For weeks now, the dark winter evenings, impenetrable to any inner light, have thrown a thick blanket of slumber and dullness over her. She feels no lightness of being. It is as if all her summer zest has flown south, somewhere along the coast of Africa.
When she meets her friends, she wonders how she ever thought their company companionable. Now she can barely tolerate their chatter, irritated by their forced gaiety. Their evening plans scrape like sandpaper against the thin surface of her civility. Were they always so superficially jovial? Was she?
Winter darkness feels like a rewiring of her brain. Somber, serious, melancholic, these grey days let other thoughts rise to the surface. Somehow, this feels more real than the wild and reckless summer sprite she once flew beside. The question is: if she digs deeper into this current state, will she discover a treasure of profound recognition, or fall into a dark abyss?
A horn blaring on the street below shakes her from her reverie. She touches her cup of tea. It’s cold. Time to cook dinner.
27 November, 2025
Beautiful sounds: reef at Westerhall
The steady, bounding drumbeat of waves breaking on the reef, far below
the cliff at Dave and Pat’s place.
25 November, 2025
20 November, 2025
16 November, 2025
13 November, 2025
10 November, 2025
07 November, 2025
Hotel in the clouds
There’s something about a breakfast buffet
in a high-rise hotel overlooking the city at sunrise that is so enjoyable.
Maybe it’s the quiet sense of being above it all, just for a moment, coffee in
hand and plate in tow, before rejoining the day’s to-do list. There’s the
familiar din of business conversations: more abrupt, but also more honest and
more varied than the romantic dinner dialogues I overheard the night before.
Fewer scripted flirting, more arguments about logistics and budget approvals,
or the boss who is making unrealistic demands on their team. Refreshing, in its
own way.
In general, people are simply more
interesting in the morning. Their faces still carry traces of sleep, their
guard not yet fully raised. There’s a softness to them, a kind of unfiltered
version of whoever they normally pretend to be.
I’ve always liked the mornings of business travel. They act as a buffer zone, a kind of gentle off-ramp into the day. Everyone gets a moment to slowly stretch their business persona, like a cat testing its limbs, with a few cautious rounds of morning callisthenics: one eyebrow raise, one polite nod, one half-hearted scroll through emails.
I personally never got used to those early-morning meet-and-greets with colleagues or workshop participants. The idea of casual conversation over breakfast, pre-caffeine, has always struck me as vaguely cruel. Instead, I would sneak down as soon as the breakfast buffet was open, usually around 6:30 a.m., and stake out a spot for some peaceful solitude before the rush arrived.
I love watching the other guests drift in, still a bit foggy, helping themselves to eggs they don’t really want and fruit they’ll ignore. I make up stories about their lives, based entirely on how they butter their toast or whether they take the last croissant without guilt. It’s like cinema in real life, only slower, and with less predictable dialogue.
That’s the fun of travelling alone. You’re not exactly alone. You’re more like a corner piece in someone else’s jigsaw puzzle: quietly important, yet never the centre of the picture. And weirdly, in the morning, people don’t seem to mind your presence. They speak freely, even when you're seated right next to them. No one lowers their voice. No one glances around to check who might be listening. No one cares.
Why is that? In the evenings, the same people are shrouded in a kind of self-imposed mystery, tucked into dimly lit corners of restaurants, speaking in cryptic half-sentences, pretending they’re invisible or, at the very least, uninterested in being known. It’s a performance of privacy.
Even those who clearly want to be seen will pretend otherwise. They arrange their expressions with care, like a shop window. They shield their privacy as if it were sacred. And perhaps it is. Yet in the morning, something shifts. Over lukewarm eggs and second-rate coffee, people let their guard down. They chat about the night before, half-laughing at their own disclosures, and gesture lazily toward the day ahead, as if it might turn out better than expected.
I’ve always liked the mornings of business travel. They act as a buffer zone, a kind of gentle off-ramp into the day. Everyone gets a moment to slowly stretch their business persona, like a cat testing its limbs, with a few cautious rounds of morning callisthenics: one eyebrow raise, one polite nod, one half-hearted scroll through emails.
I personally never got used to those early-morning meet-and-greets with colleagues or workshop participants. The idea of casual conversation over breakfast, pre-caffeine, has always struck me as vaguely cruel. Instead, I would sneak down as soon as the breakfast buffet was open, usually around 6:30 a.m., and stake out a spot for some peaceful solitude before the rush arrived.
I love watching the other guests drift in, still a bit foggy, helping themselves to eggs they don’t really want and fruit they’ll ignore. I make up stories about their lives, based entirely on how they butter their toast or whether they take the last croissant without guilt. It’s like cinema in real life, only slower, and with less predictable dialogue.
That’s the fun of travelling alone. You’re not exactly alone. You’re more like a corner piece in someone else’s jigsaw puzzle: quietly important, yet never the centre of the picture. And weirdly, in the morning, people don’t seem to mind your presence. They speak freely, even when you're seated right next to them. No one lowers their voice. No one glances around to check who might be listening. No one cares.
Why is that? In the evenings, the same people are shrouded in a kind of self-imposed mystery, tucked into dimly lit corners of restaurants, speaking in cryptic half-sentences, pretending they’re invisible or, at the very least, uninterested in being known. It’s a performance of privacy.
Even those who clearly want to be seen will pretend otherwise. They arrange their expressions with care, like a shop window. They shield their privacy as if it were sacred. And perhaps it is. Yet in the morning, something shifts. Over lukewarm eggs and second-rate coffee, people let their guard down. They chat about the night before, half-laughing at their own disclosures, and gesture lazily toward the day ahead, as if it might turn out better than expected.
Photo by Aravind Balabhaskar on Unsplash
06 November, 2025
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